When I saw you the other day, I think beneath the surprise and slight happiness, there was something else that I realise only now.

After all this time, I think the loss of contact and interaction have set us apart from what we used to be. That issue we last left off didn't help things and after that, things just fell two ways.

I don't feel like I can trust you with anything now, and I feel as if I am patronizing you as how I do others. It is tough. And it is sad.

I don't even feel like you understand an iota of me anymore. Partly because I have changed a lot, partly because we never tried to maintain it.

I don't know why I am particularly upset over what you said even though tons of people have said so to me before.

This is... weird.

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And hello you, you are disgusting.

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I want to be alone.
Just, alone. Doing nothing, absolutely nothing.